My brain/mood lifted gradually last week.  I’m so grateful.  I think writing here might have helped.  Perhaps it reminds me to hope – the hope here being that my experiences might help or educate others.

I actually worked a full, consecutive day today!  Whooooha!  Usually I have to break things up and piece my hours together throughout the day.  Magical focus and clarity were mine, and I worked right through (with a short break at lunch to take care of the chickens and make coffee).  Who knows if that will happen again soon, but I’m thankful for the days I can keep as reference points.  I CAN work a normal work day (just not all of the time, yet).

Now that things are easier, I need to build back up my outside time.  I did ride (a horse) on Saturday, but other than that I haven’t spent much time outside in the real world.  The sun broke through for just a bit this afternoon, and I really wanted to take my bike out, but I didn’t feel like I should interrupt my work focus.  Perhaps tomorrow.  I love being outside, but it is hard to leave the house when my brain is so messy.  The habit must be rebuilt all the time.

Bedtime has been easier for a few days, and I need to tread carefully.  If I take meds early enough I can get myself to bed by 11.  Off I go.